Mr. Perfect

I started this post January.... then I forgot about it because my advice is.. if something seems too good to be true! Its probably because it is :) The guy written about in the following blog admits to there being a strong connection between us, but he has since chosen to forget about me all together.... read on:

Ok, so this blog could start with an 'OMG!' in a stereotypical American cheer leader style of jumping up and down and girly giggles but no one would take me seriously. This is exatly how I feel. It is now 4 days into 2012 and I am still floating around on cloud 9!

So lets start from the beginning shall we??? The end of 2011 as you know from my first postings was not the happiest of times for me. I went to the doctor to get off the rollercoast of emotions that were bringing me down! I couldn't handle it anymore, but thinking back maybe it wasn't me. Maybe it was Mr INLOG who thought he could say one thing and do another. Perhaps he thought he was keeping me on my toes but all he was doing was crushing my heart. So what happened to him I hear you ask.... I went away for a few days, I mean, got in my car and drove away. I saw a few friends, had a huge cry while I was driving... Came home, went straight to him, took him back to my place, had some of the best sex I've ever had. But the confusing part is here... Instead of getting into his car and driving home... we ran a bath and talked for over an hr :S I'm not convinced that that is appropriate fuck buddy behaviour.

Then over the next few days leading up to NYE, I didn't talk to him actually, I didn't hear from him at all. And I was ok with that! I know!!! The progress!!!! So when my friends and I set our plans for NYE I sent him a text and invited him along, not expecting him to accept and he didn't disappoint! NYE I dropped in on him, made sure he didn't want to come with us and left him to it.

And then the drinking started :) followed closely by awesome company <3. Our driver drove us to where the party was happening and the night continued. However, midnight came, midnight went. I walked away from my besty pashing her boyfriend because that was just depressing!!! So I went out to the smokers area to make a few quiet phone calls and to send the "HAPPY NEW YEAR!! I LOVE YOU" text to those who are dear to me and couldn't be with me. So first on my list to call was Mr INLOG... called him twice then sent him a "How dare you be alseep before midnight on NYE!" text, (I later found out he woke up when I called and let the call run out! arse!) I watched the fireworks, by myself, and then went back and joined my friends.

Not long after all this I spotted him. Standing at the top of the stairs in the door way. I made eye contact, I smiled, he returned the smile. I pointed out the cute guy to my friend... and in normal drunk fashion she approached him and completely embarassed me :) Turns out Mr Perfect (I know, how sad) is a 29 yr old, non-smoker, who works for the mines, has the dreamiest eyes, most gorgous smile, no kids, taller than me, total gentleman didn't try to take me home, perfect kisser, sweet talker, smelt great... absolutely can see myeslf being happy with him forever.... until, I find out he lives in Newcastle.... 9hrs from me :(

I have barely stopped smiling since I met him. He has returned home and we have been talking via text message and Im still smiling. I've gone and seen Mr INLOG and because Im so happy now, Im more relaxed and it seems that is the me that he likes the most so I can see all this ending in tears but the goal is to have as much fun as possible. I need to ride this high for as far as it takes me. My biggest fear is falling off cloud 9. I know Im going to hit the ground hard!!

So, until the day comes and I see Mr Perfect again, the aim of the year is to just have fun. People can go get fucked for all I care. Im going to focus on Mr Perfect, Im going to have fun with Mr INLOG whether we just stay friends of go to more and im going to keep my head, heart and spirit clear so that I can continue to enjoy my year. I have never had a year start off as perfect and happy and had it last as long as this year! It can only mean good things to come. 2012 is the year of the single mummy and Im going to live it to the max with or without a man in my life. I dont need men to be happy but I do need people and friends around me.... it just so happens that a lot of those people are men!

Until next time

single_mummy86

xx